What brings up this topic is just the fact of the past. During my years on this Earth, I have had many great wonderful friends. Each has been different, but one thing has always been consistent. I've never found that one person that I could do everything with. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, but the simple fact of the matter is I've never truly felt like one of them was my best friend. The one I could call up at any time during the day and go do something with. The person I could confide my thoughts and emotions with. And I've slowly come to realize that it may not be because I haven't met them yet, but maybe because I'm not meant to have one.
I entitled this blog "The wonderful thing about Tiggers..." and I've you haven't ever watched Winnie the Pooh I will tell you that it is that Tigger is the only one. (And no I have not seen the Tigger movie so I have no idea what was in that). Anyways, I remember from my childhood that Tigger was always the one who seemed to bring joy and energy to his friends. I've always strived in my life to be a person like that, so I guess you could say I'm like him in that way. But I've come to see that maybe I'm like him in another way as well. I'm not sure if it is exactly a wonderful thing, but just maybe I am the only one who has my kind of personality, likes, dislikes, and attitude all rolled into one. And in addition, maybe that I can use that to be wonderful.
Throughout my life, I've never been the best at making friends. On the other hand, once I've been able to get past the initial introductions and such, I've always been great at building friendships. This goes back to the things I've said before, the fact that I do have an educated opinion on so many things. From movies to music to sports to games and even politics at times, I try to stay up to date on everything, which I believes allow me to help my friendships with people grow. Now I'm not saying that I know everything or that it's always because of me, but I think that just from my own experience I have an ability to create good connections with people I meet and have time to talk to. So now here is where we get back to the main idea. The fact that I create all of these, let's say, "good" friendships with may people is why I believe I've never been able to have that "best" kind of friendship. Sure some turn into "better" friendships, but I've always seen it as if I have someone who I know I can talk about sports with, while someone else I can geek out with about the newest game, and then another person I can converse with about the latest album from some band, why do I have to find that someone who I can do them all with.
The wonderful thing about Derek Daniels? Well, I'm really not sure what that is or even if there is something about myself that others would deem wonderful. But what I do know is this. I have a lot of great friends in this world who I love and care for. And while not having a "best" friend may mean I don't really have a person to talk to about things in my life or can rely on at anytime, I do know that I have had many of my great friends help me through hard times in my life. And just so we're clear to end this, I'm not saying that there are not people in my life I don't consider to be best friends, but it's just the plain fact that I've always defined a true best friend as some higher form of friendship, whether it be between two people in love or two people who have known each other forever, but even though I don't know what it's like to have someone like that, I know I have yet to reach that kind of friendship. But someone, some way, maybe I will. And for that, I keep smiling.
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